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Gay poet Mariano Zaro, whose first book of poems recently was published, believes that at a certain age people either put to death the hope of the person that they dreamed of becoming, or the fantasy simply dies on its own.




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‘Poems of Erosion/Poemas de la Erosion’
Mariano Zaro
Carayan Press, 2003
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Documenting life changes
A gay Spanish poet publishes a new book chronicling the rebirth of his self-image

PATRICK FOLLIARD
Friday, February 06, 2004

“All I write/ vanishes/ before/ it is written”

After writing this simple four-line poem, gay poet Mariano Zaro realized he had opened a door that would lead to other rooms and spaces. He knew instinctively that the words belonged to a larger body, but he had no idea what shape this body would eventually take.

As it turned out, five years later the poem, now titled “Poem #1,” has taken its place as the first of 30 entries in Zaro’s collection of bilingual poetry, “Poems of Erosion/Poemas de la Erosion.”

“It wasn’t until I actually finished the book that I realized its theme was the history of my disappearance,” he said from his home in Santa Monica, Calif. “I don’t mean this in a literal way. Of course, there are many levels of disappearance.

“My first disappearance was the result of a cultural dislocation. I left Spain and moved to L.A. almost 10 years ago. At some point, I lost track of who I was and was unable to figure out my new identity,” he said. “It happens to a lot of people in the same situation, and it’s both scary and uncomfortable. In coming, I thought I was too strong for something like that to happen to me, but I was wrong.”

According to Zaro, 40, the second erosion of self was somehow connected to a loss of youth. At a certain age, he believes, we either put to death the hope of the person that we had dreamed to become, or the fantasy simply dies on its own.

And when this takes place, and we settle on being whom we actually are, there is a time when we mourn for the idealized persona that we might have been.

“And finally the third erosion is on a more personal level,” Zaro said. “In order to make my relationship with my partner work, I hid instead of being present. I wasn’t engaged and didn’t deal with any discomfort. Things appeared to be working and flawless, but nothing was really happening. There was no emotion behind the actions. I had disappeared from self.”

WHEN HE WAS writing the poems in the collection, Zaro said all these feelings of disappearance were very intertwined. “It is only now from a distance that I’m able to talk about it so scientifically and categorize my feelings,” he said.

In his collection, the poet, who teaches elementary school in Los Angeles, features an English and Spanish version of each poem.

“I have made a commitment to write my poems in both languages,” he said. “I have no choice: Life and crises happen to me in both languages, so I have to use both to write about it. Also, I have two tools of expression, and in using both, I’m able to pare down the words and make my writing less fussy.”

Zaro strives to write poetry that is honest, avoiding temptation to create anything “shiny or showy.” It’s important to him that a poem is clear enough for the reader to become engaged, but it also needs “a little space and silence” so the reader is able to finish and, ultimately, to create the poem himself.

Born in Borja, a small town in Spain, Zora laughingly recalls as a child of five dictating his first poems to his mother.

He attended the university at Zaragoza where he earned a master’s degree in Spanish literature. During college, Zaro contributed to many literary magazines, most of which didn’t make it past a second edition.

Like many of his literary idols, he was determined to live the glamorous life of an expatriate. He bypassed Paris, Tangiers, and New York, for Los Angeles, where by day he teaches a mostly Latino third-grade class.

Since completing “Erosions,” Zaro is concentrating on prose. The first project is titled “Theme and Variation.” The second is a collection of portraits, detailing some of the eccentric women that Zaro encountered as a young boy in Spain, including a former model, and a very old lady who travels with a pet monkey.



 

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